Lost in Limbo
Some extracts from the article 'Lost in limbo' by Amna Mumtaz that appeared in Dawn Images today.
'Some people can be very neatly characterised. They are either “career oriented” or “home bodies”, “courageous” or “cowardly”, “happy” or “depressed”. What if you are all of the above? What if all your life you wanted to take a side and stick with it, but just couldn’t manage?
What if you were pulled and pushed in so many directions by the dichotomy of your temperament that your entire life seems to be slipping away in a state akin to purgatory? Now that’s a word/concept that has always fascinated me. I have often wondered if it is the same as being in a state of limbo. Was it a punishment after death for refusing to take sides while alive?
Do you have any idea how terrible it is to be a woman who doesn’t merely want to be someone’s wife or mother yet lacks the discipline or the perseverance or even the conviction to stand alone and carve out a niche for herself without being burdened by guilt or bitterness? It’s like wanting to stop the privileged shopper from breaking the queue or the speeding Mercedes from breaking the red light yet all you manage to do is seethe in silent resentment.'